i am worried~~ tears start to fall....

i suddenly felt all alone...
friends serving in ministry i am left behind...
stuff i wanna do but i can't, there is no one who i can approach...
"Home" is a nice place to be in but... there is no one who is free for me to rely on, i am weak... i am not independent.. i am afraid to be all alone, i know God is with me always but i need something tangible...

i can no longer tell my best, closest friend how i feel... because in order to bring them to God, i must be strong.. i felt so lost so stress.... so pain...