it's time i need privacy, it's time i need freedom... i need my own room to pray in!!! i need my own room to worship in..... were God's presence can touch me fully, my very own place were no one can come in as and when they like!!! praying and worshipping God whole hearted.... it is time i own my own belonging having my privacy like my very own laptop were i do my projects, a place were i write blogs and my dr4eams and hope AND NOT A LAPTOP WHICH IS MINE YET NEEDED TO BE SHARED WITH MY SIS!!! my itouch is now "hers" she share my laptop and use it like she own it!! why must she have what i own?!!! i hate it!!! using my iphone charger for "her" itouch bring the charger all over the house so she can use it for her own convening what is this??!!!! i am so determine to get back my stuff which i save for months just to get it!!

during this very period of time were having attachment is already pulling me down hill, my family's finance is going down hill too! i thank God for the chance for me to still give for my offering, pay my tithing, pledge for my building fund.. i am building a home not only for me, but a home for everyone.. a place were we laugh, a place were we cry while we share our problems with... a place were we worship God with His presence so great...

today was not that good.. my mum is falling sick.. the finance in my family is not doing good too, i am upset, stress, worried and tired..

singing praise and worship songs and tears roll down my face... felt the presence of God...

BUILDING FUND IS COMING!!!

was challenge to give 1.5k for this year building fund, this aamount is not small but i belive God will guide me through..

yesterday went for leaders meeting, totally cried... it hurt me so bad to see my spiritual parents cry.. they were there on stage, sharing their hearts out!! as i listen i realise one thing and that is among all the problems, all of it are about the nation, about the church. there is nothing that is about himself, he has a big heart for youth worried about places so the next generation have a place call home! as year go by lesser christian want to be pastors, lesser church having breakthrough to 1000s members, singapore may be small, singapore is small and if we are not able to let all get the chance to hear the Word of God, what are we to do?

A place we call home, may seems stable but it is not... medias, reporters and more.. why are you guys killing the dream of the youth, members, pastors, christians? why can't you see how much this place mean to us? you guys know nothing about us and you post things like you knnow every bit of us..... why are you guys so inconciderate? why are you guys so selfish

it's been so long almost a month since i came to post.. still having attachment...left 1 moth plus before going back to school for final year exam.. life have not been the same after stepping in to HOGC, i now start to learn that church is not a place we go and relax and definatly not just to have fun :) yes having fun, relaxing is part of it but not all of it.. after being a regular we will need to share burden with our leaders and Pastors.

for me, i want to share the burden the leaders and Pastors have.. as they have help me alot in my life.. it is their Philia love that keep me going in life and now this is the minimum i can do to help back!

Loves my Pastors and Leaders lots!