A sudden question ask by my mum kept me awake all morning after using computer at night....
she say :" boy look at yourself ever since u injured your leg u have not been studying, the only stuff u do at home is play computer, watch television, eat and sleep what else u know how to do?! what do u want your life to be next time? what u wanna work as?!" lol among all only the word in yellow make me speechless, after that sentence was out from my mom's mouth i stay still, eyes close and pretend to sleep to prevent her saying more stuff...
i kept thinking what do i wanna do? what should i do? i hate studies and life is troublesome all i only know is i just wanna enjoy and sing in a hall a theater filled with audience. sigh but will it come true?
should i continue study chemical process tec? and work as a job after NS? or am i going to get any job i can find after NS? what about my stuff i have been thinking lately? quitting this course and take up bakery course and work part time in bakery shop to save up for my piano and music studies? but what happen if music studies is not a success? am i gonna bake muffins and cakes forever? or just sign on in NS till who knows when? i seriously have no idea what i wanna do or gonna do in life....
if i just die all this will nv be in my thinking....
die is still the better way out
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